only God knows....

He's always on my mind

From the time I wake up 'til I close my eyes

He's everywhere I go

He's all I know

And though he's so far away

It just keeps getting stronger, every day

And even now he's gone

I'm still holding on

So tell me where do I start

Cause it's breaking my heart

Don't wanna let him go

Maybe my love will come back some day

Only heaven knows

And maybe our hearts will find a way

Only heaven knows

And all I can do is hope and pray

Cause heaven knows

My friends keep telling me

That if you really love him

You've gotta set him free

And if he returns in kind

I'll know he's mine

So tell me where do I start

Cause it's breaking my heart

Don't wanna let him go

Why I live in despair

Cause wide awake or dreaming

I know he's never there

And all the time I act so brave

I'm shaking inside

Why does it hurt me so

only God knows......

but i still keep this "light" in my heart even sometimes it is faint but sometimes it is bright in another day.... and i will keep this "light" until the only God who will take it from my heart... it's not because i love you so but i'm trying to love you with all my sincerity that God has taught me... just as the way you kept all the memories about me for many years... and really i'd be glad if someday you'll find the happiness even that's not me who stay beside you...