it is always something that really hard for me to explain..
either i will try to falling love with someone or just don't want to lose any kind attention from people around me...
there always something in the deep in my heart that I can't show to the people..
I like to hiding it by my self..
maybe I'm too scare to try it once again...
consider that is me the one who know how the way I love someone for some years just to stay in the same place with do nothing just wait for the miracles come.. so silly...
and after that the answer is I couldn't make the one I love to be mine and I'm getting hurt just because of my own feeling...
sometimes I want someone who really care and understand for what I need...
but sometimes I just want to ignore all the people who care around me...
just because of I'm scared of loosing.. I'm scared if I put heart in them...
as I used to know that I will feel down just because I love them very much..
I really want to go away...
far... far from the old people...
far... far from the old memories...
I wanna being the new one in the new place...
with new moments....
with new people....
with new circumstances that can accept me for who I am and never look behind of my life story....
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