it's time to let go... :'(

I hope this is the last night I remember everything about you...

yes... really I have to go...

You will soon enter into a covenant with her...

as the truth... it breaks me so...

no one beside me... I cry...

I keep my eyes on you...

but I have to let go of all our memories...

too beautiful... but too hurt to know the truth...

that you're not mine...

I will try to run away...

but even I don't know where should I run to...

the only one place for me to go...

I bend my knees and pray for the strength from God...

tell Him all about my wounds...

it's not your fault...

it's just my way that God gave me to learn...

I will try to enjoy this pain...

until I understand the reason that you have come to my life...

and I will smile to the world after this...

ya Allah...

this is my heart temptation... I know...

I have to turn my heart to You...

and the only for You...

so I close my heart today to other...

so there's only You inside...

no matter how hard.. as long as You beside me ...

I can be strong to pass it...

you there...

in wherever you are... just keep remember Allah in every step you make....

I pray in silent here for your happiness with her...

and I will always remember you as my beautiful memory...

I just hope this is the last time of losing for me...

and I won't let anyone come inside my heart until Allah send me the last person who will walk with 'til I die...